So I have decided..... I am going to start 'blogging' my journey! I have been 'battling the bulge' for quite some time.
What haven't i 'tried!' remedy after remedy. Quick fix queen right here!! Sustainable ? Maintainable! No way!!
For me it's just as much a physical battle as it is a mental battle. Let's go back to the catalyst for it all. In September 2010 I was in an emotional state of despair. I was simply just 'existing' in my life. My BFF took me on a much needed girls trip away. I came back somewhat refreshed but still miserable. I was at my heaviest between 90-95 kgs. How did I let this happen? Dum dum dum.. In enters the phone call to 'Jenny' yep! That's right! Jenny Craig! My official 'Jenny' starting weight was 90kgs. Wow! For the first 8 weeks I was the strictest I've ever been. I went on 'alcohol ban' and Pretty much ate perfect. But then, I discovered the worst thing ever. I can still eat 'naughty' yummy food and the scales are decreasing!! Woo hoo right? Wrong. This just lead to a bigger case of self destructive binge eating. So 2010 is drawing to a close I'm about 85 kgs and still miserable.
It's time to commit to Jenny again, and up my exercise. January -march 2011 is up and down and stuff around. Then in around April I discover booty camp! And a great motivating girlfriend! Booty camp is boot camp for women run by women 2 times a week Monday/Wednesday night for me 6-7pm for a 6 week rotation at a time.
Netball season starts too! I'm exercising heaps and eating "okay ish" finally get near the 80kg mark!! Just need to crack the 70s! May rolls around, I lose an instant 85kgs of ex boyfriend. Bam. Crack those 70s within a month or so.
I'm still fighting with myself at this stage. I'm happy but I don't love myself. I know I need to get "me" right.
Up my exercise still eat shit with some healthy and feeling this constant pressure to be perfect. Enter binge eat!!
Cycling..... Emotional binge eating lots of cheese... Crackers wine.... Going out on weekends... Drinking..... Dinners with girlfriends... Single girls gotta party right??
My priorities shift yet again. My goal gets put on the back burner! How unfair to me. In July/August my brain starts to get it together again. Alcohol ban again, 6 weeks woo hoo!! Semi clean eating 'mostly' and 6 days a week of exercising!! Feeling great and busy!! 77.7!!!
Mid August, roll my ankle at netball. Do the major ligament cannot walk. In enters what shall now be known as miserable manda!! Cannot move , sad , no motivation -lets eat junk! 80! Yuck...
Take it easy all of August! It's a close friends wedding mid september! Back on track! I walked down the isle at about 79. My goal was 75 by the wedding. Readjust.
Skip forward to now... This week has been salads and lean meat. The cleanest I've eaten for a long time!! So I have decided I want to be accountable and really blog my journey. I want to put pictures up too. Before...... Progress shots... Today I am 78.2. Stay tuned!
