So, Here I am! I have finally succumbed to 'blogging' the concept has always intrigued me somewhat, however I have always wondered what on earth i would find to blog about.
Let's start with the 'quarter life' crisis... approximately two months ago, I decided enough was enough. I had been in a relationship for almost two years. I had not been happy for a long time, I was however in extreme denial about it.
I thought that if I just tried really really hard to 'fix it' and get it right, (that's a whole other blog!!) then all of my problems would be solved. I would fix it all and he would love me as much as I thought I was supposed to be loved. The illusion, of 'in love' ....head over heels, one day my prince will come.....
Reality.... when those rose coloured glasses came off I realised that this is totally not what I want in my life.
The butterflies were gone, but then I found myself questioning if they were ever really there?
I have now said the words, they have come out of my mouth. What do I do now? Everything I have known for the last two years has come crashing down around me, and I am alone. Wow - Alone. for the first time really in 5 years, I am completely alone. I am excited, I am scared... I am a mixed emotional bag! I know deep within me though, that this is what I want.. for the first time in 24 years, I stop and question, what I want.
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